Reason for this day…
I got up this morning at 7 a.m. as planned. I probably got to sleep by about 12:30 a.m. last night. 6 1/2 hours of sleep. Not perfect, but respectable. I had a very fulfilling day yesterday. All good things. Yet here it is almost 2:30 and I’ve not done a damn thing with my day. Ok, that’s not completely accurate. I have played guitar today. I have eaten the cereal and made the bed and put away the clean clothes that I washed yesterday but hadn’t put away yet. I still feel as though I’ve frittered away my morning and early afternoon. I keep putting off the “going to look for work” thing. I dread it. It feels like defeat and is pretty depressing. (I guess I somehow keep hoping for a miracle or something else to come up or that I won’t have to do this…).
I know that there is a reason for this day. I know that there is a reason that I frittered away my morning/early afternoon. I know that down the road somewhere I’ll see that I did something today that I was meant to do. I’ll do something this afternoon that is incredibly valuable for my journey. There is a reason for today’s “inactivity” even if I can’t necessarily see it right now. Just have to make the most of rest of my day.