Doing the Right Thing
I’ve decided to tell them at the callback tomorrow night that I’m not available for shows the weekend of June 16. M. & I have had this weekend planned for months and I’ve really been looking forward to seeing Cirque du Soleil with her. Backing out on that if I was offered a show that weekend would be the wrong thing to do. Making this decision before I go into the callback is the right thing to do for alot of reasons.
- It sends a clear message into the universe that I believe in abundance. I’m putting myself out there consistently now. The right show will come to me at the right time and in the right way. I must have faith in that.
- It sends a clear message into the universe about what I value here at the start of my career. I value my relationship with M. a great deal. (A way, way, big great deal, but hey, I don’t want to get too mushy! ; ) I’m sure that there will be conflicts that we both will have with things that we’ve planned in the future. I’m sure that some of those conflicts will involve important career opportunities that we will need to move on despite plans that we’ve made. We’ll decide on those down the road as things come up. This isn’t that type of opportunity for me.
- It sends a message to the universe that I will have the brilliant career that I want and that I will do it on my own terms and in my own way.
- I’m able to go into the callback without any ambiguity. I can give it my all knowing that I won’t have any potential conflicts down the road. It also eliminates my anxiety about potential conflicts in advance.
- It just feels alot better to be clear about what I will and won’t do in order to do my first show.
Heck, with any luck I’ll get offered a show the weekend of the 23rd. It’d suck to not be able to do my club date on the 10th, but I think I’d take the hit if I was offered something. (But would I make the trek out to Brooklyn? That’s another question entirelly…) I also still haven’t heard from the folks I read for on Monday. That’s also something that might be possible…
And honestly, I might not be offered anything, which would mean that all of this angst would be for nothing.
Oh well! : )