Deliverable

The true test of my teaching method comes when I ask myself the following question:

Am I willing to use the same techniques I’m teaching my students in my own study of an instrument that is new to me?

This came to me today as I practiced guitar. This is an instrument that I’ve taught myself how to play. I have not mastered it yet by any means. I was struggling with a passage and said to myself “Why don’t I practice this passage the same way I’ve been telling my students to approach material that is new to them?”. I did this. It helped tremendously.

We should be willing to practice that which we preach when it comes to teaching. It gives our words more weight if we are able to honestly say to a student: “I’ve used these same techniques to teach myself –insert new instrument here—.” It’s also very humbling to begin again with the struggle of playing something that is unfamiliar and helps us better understand the “beginner mind” that our students are dealing with.

Wanted to make a few quick observations about my practice these past two weeks, based on the records I’ve kept.

• I practiced trombone 3 days in the first week, then it dropped off to one day in the second week.
• I sang pretty consistently in the first week, right up to my lesson on Wednesday of the second week. As of this post I’ve not sang since my lesson.
• I had more guitar practice in the first week than in the second, but still did a fair amount of guitar work in week 2.
• I practiced bass the least of all, averaging one session per week.

What to make of these stats? One thing about recording my practice is that it’s easier to see patterns and habits.

• Guitar is the easiest of the instruments to practice, because it’s really easy to just pull the guitar down and play. Easy access and instant gratification.
• I sing more when I have auditions, because I use my singing warm-up as a vocal warm-up. Having the lesson as a motivating factor helps, but not necessarily as a primary motivator. I can still “get through the lesson” without having sung as much as I would have liked.
• Perhaps the reason that I practice the trombone less these days is because I don’t get as much of that “instant gratification” of seeing myself get better right away. I’m already a damn good trombone player, so the bar is much higher.
• My goal is to see each day filled up with practice on each instrument, as opposed to these big gaps between playing. I’ve not reached this goal yet, but at least I’ve begun the “measurable” part of “SMART”. I’ll work on the “specific” part more this week.

I don’t want to make too big a deal about this because I don’t want to see things that aren’t there, but I thought I’d mention it nonetheless. Got a call this afternoon for a job the first week of March. I’m not suggesting that it is a direct result of all my previous posts. I think what it does show is that you truly don’t know how tomorrow is going turn out and that wonderful surprising things are always possible, especially if you open yourself up to them.

And so it goes.

I went to R.L.’s masterclass tonight and wanted to capture some impressions while they’re still fresh. I’m always blown away when I go to these things. He’s such and amazing teacher/coach. He inspires me to want to be a singer. (I guess I am a singer to some degree… perhaps what I’m saying is that he inspires me to want to be really good as a singer…). Then the struggle begins between my different ideas of what I can/should/might do with my creative/artistic career. (Am I a trombone player? Am I an actor? Could I ever be good enough to be a singer on stage? Is it something that I’m passionate enough about to sustain the type of work that it would take to ever be good enough?) I’ve flown off on so many flights of artistic fancy, without a real sense of what I’m going to do with any of them. Bass. Guitar. Acting. Singing. It’s all great stuff, and I don’t for one minute regret any of it. But I end up having the same question with all of my artistic endeavors: “Can I be good enough at all of these things?” I don’t want to be a jack of all trades and a master of none.

As I’m looking back over what I’ve written above, I’m remembering something that occurred to me on the train on the ride home. It occurred to me that whatever I choose to do with my life, it should fully use all of me. Maybe that’s what I was feeling when I was “just a trombone player”. Something inside me said “I’m more than this”. I have all of this talent and creative energy and so many different sides of myself. Whatever I choose to do with my life needs to embrace all of that. I want to live every day without holding back. Pushing myself to be all that is inside of me.

I think that the artistic/creative path that I have chosen has the potential to fulfill that goal. I was thinking on the ride home that being an actor/songwriter/singer/trombone player/entertainer/performer is going to challenge me on so many levels. Physically I’m going to need to raise the level of my game and make my body the best that it can be. Emotionally I’m going to have to open myself and challenge myself to find places within myself that I don’t naturally gravitate to. I’m going to daily have to face fears and put myself in situations that scare me. All of this seems like a pretty full use of myself.

So, what is the concept that I mentioned in the title of this post?

Choose a life path that fully uses all of the you that’s inside you.

And so it goes.

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Oh, and also… showed my headshots to A.A. She thought both of the looks were great! : )

Was traveling most of this past week and recovering from traveling the rest of the week.

Trombone
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W: 20
Th: 20
F: 20
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Bass
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W: 20
Th: 20
F: 20
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Guitar
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I’m trying something new here. I’ve created a new category for “Music”. I’ll create a weekly post to track my practice times on each instrument. Nothing fancy, just the amountof time I spend each day. It’ll be a sort of concrete way to send my practice out into the universe so that the benefits might flow back to me, whatever those benefits might be. I’m not going to get anal with this. I don’t plan to track the total number of time spent each week practicing, because it’s more about seeing that I’ve been playing music consistently. At this point, it’s not as important that I practice for hours and hours each day, but that I make music a consistent part of my life. I’ll keep it simple: One post each week for all the instruments, which I’ll update throughout the week. The goal is to be able to look back on this week and say “Yes, I played music consistently this week.”

One other observation from my practice tonight: Now that I have my apartment cleared, it feels much easier to make my studio my “practice place”. I don’t want my instruments scattered all over the apartment as I did before. This gives me a sacred space to play music and makes it much easier to associate practicing with that place.

–update: 6/12/06–
I’ve decided to track practice differently. All of these posts have been aggregated into my practice tracking page.